My heart beats, I can really feel the pain.
I feel something and it's not rain,
I'm crying.
Pain, fear, denial, its all around me.
All these tears,
These are my fears,
Coming out,
Wanting to shout.
But I close the door,
Instead I'm crying on the floor.
You can't come out,
You can't shout.
These words remain inside.
It's almost dawn,
He is still not gone.
I try to be real,
But I can't help it, this is what I feel.
I love him!
I don't know how, I don't know why,
My eyes are not yet dry.
Sunlight,
But in me
It is still night.