Words of pain and misery
Written all over again
My expressions repeat
Once more

Tears on my pillow
Scream for help
Popping out of my chest
Every morning

Recaptures of moments
Going through my mind
The part I knew
Me holding my little brother real tight
Your sons saying Caddish
Your little girl crying, screaming
'Papa, Papa, I need you'
A scream that had no answer


Tears on my pillow
Scream for help
Popping out of my chest
Every morning

My reality seems
Like a bas Turkish movie
In a loop
Refusing to end
I seem to find
Temporary calmness
With a paper and a pen
But that illusion
Only lasts for a few moments
Before it fades away

Tears on my pillow
Scream for help
Popping out of my chest
Every morning

I wish for a sunrise
That will light away
My pain


12.12.04
This poem was written after the lose of my only uncle