I play roles; they say I am a fake. I am their clown; I
dress funny and always make them laugh. I am real as real
they will never be. Between all the roles and masks hides
the real me - a human, not like you. Queens, kings and other
rich people who dream of freedom and never will be free. You
cheat, steel, lie and then you call me fake. I only wear the
mask for the show. The same show I do to make you laugh.
After the show, I leave the mask at home, but your mask is
always with you. You sleep with your mask, you eat with it,
even when you guys fuck your women you wear a mask, because
you dream about Lilith and if not about her, than definitely
about another woman, just not the one you fuck at the
moment. And the women who lie under you dream about other
men, so don't flatter yourselves. Each one of them dreams
about her Lancelot. And me, I had my kings, not one nor two
but I always dream about the one I can't get. Always the one
who belongs to another woman; sorry, not a woman, I should
say queen. A queen can't be a regular woman; she is
definitely more than that. So I have no chance against her.
I am just a clown, a fake that would never be such a fake as
she is. Because I am real, I am here and I am not going
anywhere. All my life is the same stupid show, the same
fucking stupid show. All my fucking life I work and I will
never get what I want. I will never get to play Cinderella
who finds her prince and lives happily ever after. Hell, I
wish you all die; NO! I wish to die. I am so tired of this
life, of all of this. I got this friend, you know, she says
I want too much and should learn to accept my life the way
they are, and enjoy living them. BUT I CAN'T because I WANT
MORE; I want to be a queen, a dark queen, different from all
those fakes. Loving, Caring, Warier queen, a real fighter in
the field and for my people against all what is fake.