Nothing could ease my pain of confusion,
The helplessness of the unknown,
The fear of not getting what I wish for,
Waiting for something that will never come.

It's the heaviness on my chest and on my throat,
That is pulling me down slowly.
It's the heaviness I've grown fond of,
That has been with me for so long a part of me.

Nothing could ease my pain of confusion,
The helplessness of the unknown,
The fear of not getting what I wish for,
Waiting for something that will never come.

Imagining how it would feel like,
Every touch every breath of air.
Every beat of my heart as it tries to rip out of my chest.
I imagine the warmth of his fingers against my soft cheek.
The way my heart will stop the moment our eyes will meet.

Nothing could ease my pain of confusion,
The helplessness of the unknown,
The fear of not getting what I wish for,
Waiting for something that will never come.

Wishing for something I don't deserve,
That only perfection might get.
Beating myself down every day, for thing I can not change.
Stuck in a reality where I don't fit in, looking for my
place where everything will be clear.

Nothing could ease my pain of confusion,
The helplessness of the unknown,
The fear of not getting what I wish for,
Waiting for something that will never come.

It is what keeps me alive and what stops me from living,
But I can't seem to let it go.
I'd rather not live at all if that means I have my dream,
the slightest chance for hope.

Nothing could ease my pain of confusion,
The helplessness of the unknown,
The fear of not getting what I wish for,
Waiting for something that will never come.

Now I'm cold in the place I belong, and my eyes finally
close under the weight.
I surrender to the heaviness that is my dreams and my faith.