When I said you're not worth all these sleepless nights,
I lied.
Then I said that I won't fight you on this,
even though I tried.
When I said I was done making a big deal
And when I said that I will heal,
I was trying to fight everything I feel.
I cried.

When I said that I hate you,
I lied.
Then I said ill let go,
it was just because you tried.
When I said loving you is like a curse
And when I said that losing you
would be worse,
I was trying to make you reimburse.
I cried.

When I said everything but what I wanted to say,
I lied.
Then I said everything but how I really feel,
even though I tried.
When I said everything but the truth,
I died.






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