I am studying myself
Little by little
I am teaching myself to myself
One chapter at a time

I am studying myself through you
Trying to do it on my own
Without your help
Just by looking at you

I remove the books and the films and the friends
I remove my computer my music my craves
And without aids I am looking at me looking at you
And I see myself bare, and exposed and fragile

And scared of my own gaze




London November 2004