Dear father,


If you see this letter I am probably dead.
This letter is for you to understand the reason for my
death.
I couldn't tell you this to your face because I was afraid
of your reaction,
I wanted to be an actor and you knew it, but you didn't let
me be what I wanted to be, you wanted me to be a doctor. But
I couldn't, I couldn't live with myself knowing I couldn't
fulfill my dream. My only way out was to commit suicide. I
know I let you down before, but you have to understand me,
how do you think you would have felt if someone told you
that you had to forget your dreams, forget your ambitions
and do something you didn't even want to do, if someone was
controlling your life and your future. I didn't want that,
not at all.

So now I hope you can see and accept the fact that I am dead
because of you. Now you have to live with your conscience
and the guilt that you killed your own son, like you killed
my dreams.

Tell mom I love her.


Yours truly
Your son Neil.