An ocean of feelings is raging inside me
Raging on love, raging on trust,
Raging on hate, raging on betrayal
To understand that gift I was to fail.
Life is evil, that's a possibility I cannot ignore
So much pain, so much hurt I felt before.
There is no god, of that I'm sure
But is love only a fantasy of the poor?


The feelings of love, that I cannot solve
What does it mean when another persons life is above yours?
Why do you feel that way? Why?
For that person are you really ready to die?
This is not rational, this cannot be real
Those feelings only a mad man can feel.


Am I crazy feeling that way?
From my love I cannot be away
Just looking on the eyes of one another for a while
Just a glance of her sweet sweet smile
To me that is all & that is nothing
To see her with another is so devastating
A broken heart you cannot put together
In the empty spaces you are overwhelmed with anger
Like water, it is seeping down your soul
In his way he's filling every crack & hole.
You try to fight it, you try & you fail
Only a heart full of goodness on this fight can prevail.
I guess I'm not as righteous as I thought before.
In my story, I haven't won my inner war.


On this day my anger I'm challenging
For my heart had stopped raging
He wasn't a fool or a scum
Time has reviled that I was just dumb
Understanding that, I can move on
To the next love that comes along
Suddenly it's a new world,
Nothing around you seems to get old.
You care about the little things
Like the bird that on the morning sings
The days seem brighter
& you feel like a fighter
This war evil cannot prevail
As long as my goodness continues to wail
That gives me strength
That gives me power
And with that, my anger I'll devour.


Crushed to pieces and swept away by wind
My anger seems to have fined
Born again, with a lot of regrets,
I say I'm sorry as I wish the couple all the bests
Finally, I understand the gift, I understand it all
On life the best thing you can have is control.
Control over rage, control over fear
This lesion you need to keep with you near
Your gift in life is true love,
For it completes you like a tight glove.
Without it you have just a smear
Of all things in life you want beside you near
Let the shreds of disappointed love vanish like they never
were
For that love never came from your hearts core.
It would be frustrating & it may not seem right
But you have to do everything in your power to keep on the
fight
You can't realize this though struggle
Until you see things from my over all angle.
She is happy, and in good hands
That's the important of all
Isn't that what you anxiously wanted deep inside your soul?

אני חושב שאין יותר מה להוסיף על השיר, מי שעבר את מה שאני
עברתי יודע עד כמה המילים הללו הן צל מושלם של מה שקרה.
לצערי רק ספורים יבינו את השיר לעומק משמעותו.
אני עצמי הבנתי אותו רק אחרי שנכתב, המילים היו חייבות לצאת,
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