Why do I feel this way?
Now that I've finally opened myself
I've started to listen to myself
To be the person I am
But somehow I feel weird
Although I've started to find
The true one I am
I feel left outside from everybody
I don't want to fall apart into pieces
I wanna be myself
And want others to understand
But others won't understand
Like I can't understand others

I want to be myself
Without feeling this pain
I have to be strong
And not to break down
Just to be myself
To make this feeling go away
But I can't lie to myself
This feeling won't go away
It was here all the time
It will stay here forever

This feeling will stay
It will make me wanna cry
It will make me wanna die...


(was written in 15.11.03)