Sometimes, I have these dreams
Dreams in black and white and shades of gray
I dream of pain and sadness and never felt emotions
About people I never met and things I never did
Those normal, everyday experiences that I missed
My days in high school, the trips, the tests, graduation, my
first kiss...
Ten years of life vanished without a trace, ten years of
zombie like existence devoid of any human touch.
Progress, yes there was progress, trying to succeed, to be
normal, to be like everyone else
I don't want to be like everyone, I don't care about power,
about money, I don't want
the ooh's and aah's of the mindless drones around me
I want to be me, I want to live, to be happy, I want to
feel
A kiss, a smile, a warm hug from the person I love, from the
person that loves me back
To be able to not have regrets whenever looking around.
I want you, yes you, to love, to hold between my arms,
against my skin, when the darkness comes
To feel your warmth at night, when the loneliness envelops
me.
I want you to fill me up, to be my other half, I want to be
your other half as well.
To bring in my life those things, that I missed, those years
that passed me by.
I see you, but cannot speak, I feel you, but don't know how
to love.
I am  a child, trying to build a castle in the sand, but the
ocean keeps tearing it down.
I am a man, without a past, trying to build a future,
without the tools.
Sometimes, I have these dreams.